When the rain washes away these tears.

I went to bed with a cold frost-bitten heart.
I boiled my eyes out to sleep.
I woke up to rain, thunder, and lightning.
And they said, "Tomorrow will be a brighter day."
Bullshyt.

When words come out of the mouth of an angered, those words are sharp and painful.
It slices like a samurai, stabs like a dagger.
But words of apology don't come easy.
Neither does it work easy too.

I hurt like a Blair Waldorf, you spend like a Chuck Bass.
If you owned Bass Industries, sure.
Apologies don't work on Blair Waldorf.
It's deeds that touch and show the change.

I don't need your money.
But I need you to have money so you can save yourself.
I only need your love and attention.
Being this far, I'm not getting much.

It's not fair that I'm a needy and you're not.
The saying "Treat people how you wish to be treated" doesn't work too properly.
Sure I wish to be showered with love everyday, but giving you all that doesn't bring me anything.
And you don't really care if you don't hear from me for a day or two, so you think I wouldn't care too.
I have come to learn your ways, I try to give you the space you needed.
But you never gave what I wanted.
Cyrus Rose says "Not enough!!"

When your close ones give you concern and advice, you brush it away like a dirty stain.
When strangers talk about themselves, you listen and pick up the pieces.
Is it wrong to care and show it?
And is it right to put words into people's mouth?

If you think my intention is to ruin your holiday, then you must really not know me well.
But I know you well enough. You're probably going to just chuck everything in the corner of your room once you get bored of it. You chuck everything in every corner. Except for things you use everyday, they will be along your daily paths.

Have you once thought that your recent past could've been partly your fault?
The things you say, and how you like things your way and only your way.
I saw it from the beginning but I thought you'd be different with me. Instead I merged into your ways and your life. No, you didn't ask me to do anything for you. But I do it out of love from my heart. If you don't like it, let me know.

You think near, and I think far.
Some say it's a match, but sometimes it's more of a collision.
I needed you to show me you're willing and you're helping.
I thought we were in this together.
I don't know how much you spree or not, but I will need money when I come back and when I get there too. My pay per month here is only half your rent per month. And I do this for us, not just for myself.

But you, you wouldn't help yourself a single bit! I don't need to list them down here, you know it all.


I love you. But if I'm such a shit to you, then you call the shots.

Marry me - Train

I never thought this would happen, at least not so soon. But your love has rushed over to capture my heart. Now I can't let go of you. You overwhelmed me with love and care and tenderness.

I can't wait for May to come. I can't wait to eventually live with you and grow old with you. You make life so exciting for me. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be traveling every 3 months or so. You've changed my life, baby.

I love you very much and I do wanna marry you, now, tomorrow, even next year.

v

To be with your loved ones during celebrations

Why it's Christmas this weekend!

Gosh, I'm missing Ryan so much. Exactly a year ago, I wasn't quite the angel I am right now! Heh, but a year's gone by and things have changed. Life is sweeter, yet unclear.

I really need to figure out what to do with my life. and I hate this feeling so much.

Anyway, I'll be seeing Ryan very very soon and celebrating festivities with him too!


Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone who reads this!! May you have a good blissful year ahead!

Whenever you blow kisses my way

It's almost been a year since it happened. I'm still hurt when I think about what happened, but when you remind me you love me, I thank God it happened! 'Cause you're amazing and I love you. You make me wish I can do anything in the world just to make you happy.

I may not say the right things all the time. I may share things the wrong way. But if I knew it would upset you or make things any worse, baby you should know I wouldn't have told you about it. I have no intentions of hurting you or your feelings.

People judge, but if we ignore it and be ourselves and prove them wrong I don't see how it matters. And I know you, and trust and believe in you, that's why I choose you over every other one. AND that is why I don't care if people want to judge you. You mean more the world to me.

Baby you need to know how you make me feel when you tell me you miss me or say you love me and let me know how much you wished I was around. I know you would feel that way even if you never told me, but you leave this carefree smile on me throughout the day when I hear from you at all. I really wish there was more that I could do for us to be together.

You know I love you, baby. I miss you.
xoxo

I love you from your toes to your face!

Train - If It's Love

While everybody else is getting out of bed
I’m usually getting in it
I’m not in it to win it
And there’s a thousand ways you can skin it
My feet have been on the floor
Flat like an idle singer
Remember winger
I digress
I confess you are the best thing in my life
But I’m afraid when I hear stories
About a husband and wife
There’s no happy endings
No Henry Lee
But you are the greatest thing about me

[Chorus]
If it’s love
And we decide that it’s forever
No one else could do it better
If it’s love
And we’re two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
And if I’m addicted to loving you
And you’re addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, Love
That’s enough for me

Took a loan on a house I own
Can’t be a queen bee without a bee throne
I wanna buy ya everything
Except cologne
’cause it’s poison
We can travel to Spain where the rain falls
Mainly on the plain side and sing
’cause it is we can laugh we can sing
Have ten kids and give them everything
Hold our cell phones up in the air
And just be glad we made it here alive
On a spinning ball in the middle of space
I love you from your toes to your face

[Chorus]
You can move in
I won’t ask where you’ve been
’cause everybody has a past
When we’re older
We’ll do it all over again
When everybody else is getting out of bed
I’m usually getting in it
I’m not in it to win it
I’m in it for you

If it’s love
And we’re two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
Then the rest is just whenever

If it’s love
And we decide that it’s forever
No one else could do it better
And if I’m addicted to loving you
And you’re addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That’s enough for me

Mais pourquoi la vie es toujours comme ça?

Mon coeur, il fait mal quand tu parle avec moi comme ça. Et aussi, tu jamais dit désolée.

But what can I do if I love you too much?

xoxo

My sunshine.

When your message said you were tired and that it's days like this you need me to go home to, I felt so sad I wasn't around. I was going to cry.

Even worse when you said that it's not the same talking over the internet and you need to hold me. I was driving when I read that. And I realized how much I really really miss you. As much as I want to go and see you, I can't. I don't know what to do. February's wait is so long, but it'll be worth it.

You hang in there, we're gonna work this out okay.

I love you, Sunshine.